Hecate Greets Me at the End of the World
& When the Eldritch Gods Came You Surrendered to The Sea
Hecate Greets Me at the End of the World
The moon held me in her white gleaming arms,
beneath the velvet skies,
beyond the mountains and the edge of fallow fields,
where I danced with someone I loved or thought I did anyhow,
and she meets me, craters and all in the failing light of day,
my hunger grows
for a place beyond the stars and the stares of the people
of the town—watching me grab for her in the mornings
as she leaves—
I feel her judgment in the breaking waves
though no beach is near to me
and water has long ago left my side;
all the dams of all the nation
will break apart for her useless bit of affection,
and I will drown in it,
drown in the watered-down bits
of touch and longing in a purple sea.
When the Eldritch Gods Came You Surrendered to the Sea
Before there was love, there was silence—
an empty hallway in the space where you would come to be,
and I was an empty gleam
in His broken universe—I swirled around
between stars and galaxies and still nothing held
a gem of value,
I was simply chasing all the beauty promised to me—
Now I sit with sand grit between my fingers
as I seek gold
along the empty beaches
without you.
On this beach,
you are the roar of the ocean—
you are the salt on my skin,
and I am leaving the shore behind
to dive deeper into you,
dragging myself through the crushing depths of you;
you are the weight of the world
and the constant pushing of you against me
lets me know I am breathing
even as I am suffocating.
B.A. O’Connell
B.A. O’Connell was born and raised in Lockney, Texas, alongside a family they can’t tell you about, or they’d have to kill you. Find their chapbook, Sewn, Together, Anew and novella, As I Want to Remember It on Amazon. Find out more about their creative projects on their twitter @OnceIateataco and tumblr—hellishrebukesystem.tumblr.com